Finally home!  I flopped onto my bed staring at the familiar ceiling, how glad I was to be home after such an exhausting week.  I notice a small spider web forming in one of the corners.  It sent shivers through my spine.  I hated spiders!  I’m so deadly scared of them.  I stared at it for the longest time; I don’t know why I couldn’t take my eyes off it.  I slowly staggered out of my bed and made my way over to the corner without once taking my eyes off the web.  Have you ever wonder why there would be so many spider webs in your house, but then the spiders are no where to be found?  Where do they go?  Do they just leave behind the hours of work they put on that one web and make another one?  Or do they just die? 

 

As I slowly got closer to the web I noticed a small crack in the wall where the walls meet to form a corner.  I screamed out bloody murder as a spider crawled out from the crack.

 

“Char what happened?”  Gil came rushing in moments later. 

 

“EWW NASTY HORRIBLE SPIDER!  KILL IT!” I screamed.

 

Gillian immediately fell over in laughter!  There she was sprawling over the ground laughing her head off.  I didn’t find it funny! That hideous thing jumped out at me! I swear I was like only inches away from it.  Well not really inches maybe more like a foot… or two.

 

“You’re hopeless!  A tiny little spider!”  Gillian managed to get out when she finally remembered how to breathe.

 

“Shut up and just kill it already!  If you don’t I’ll be in your room all night bugging you about it!” I whined

 

“Okay okay! I’ll kill it.”

 

I watched her grab some tissues and just went up to the disgusting spider.  I flinched as she squashed it between the layers of tissue with her fingers.

 

“Char you want some dessert?” Gil smirked with evil look on her face as she slowly made her way towards me.

 

“Stay away from me! Ew you’re so nasty!”  I screamed as Gil began to chase me around with the smashed bug in her hand.

 

I ran out of my room and down the stairs into the living room.  What did I do to get a sister like this? 

 

“Don’t come near me with that thing!  Gil I swear I’ll get you back some how and you know it!”  I warned as I hid behind the couch.

 

“Start another war? I’m all up for it!” She snickered “Come here my pretty!”

 

“Gil! Get away from me!”

 

“I love you! Come here and give me a hug!” she slowly inched closer with her arms spread out

 

“You’re crazy!”

 

I saw my chance to get away, so I sprinted as fast as I could up the stairs and into my room.

”Come back here!” Gil screamed chasing after me.

 

I slammed the door in her face and sighed in relief.

 

“You’re no fun!” She screamed through the door.

 

“Well you’re sick!”

 

“I’ll just sit out here till you come out.  I mean you have to come out sooner or later.”

 

“Wait as long as you want”

 

AH! Stuck in my own room! How messed up is this?  I feel like I’m a kid again and being sent to my room because I did something wrong, but this time I didn’t do anything wrong! I’m hiding from my own sister! I started thinking of ways to her back.  Tell everyone about that time when she walked out of the house with the edge of her dress tucked in her underwear. Oh so much I could do.

 

After awhile of listing things it got pretty boring.  I just started to think of what to get Edison again.  It’s so hard buying presents for a guy! It’s kind of ironic how guys say its hard buying presents for girls and girls says its hard buying presents for guys.  I guess a card would be for starters. I started writing

 

                            Hey Edison,

                               

                            Merry Christmas! Hope you like your present! Took me forever to figure out what to get you.

                            Just wanted to say thanks for everything! You know pretending to be my boyfriend in front of 
                            my parents and that whole hospital thing.  I’ve done some stupid stuff, but you know me! I 
                            always find myself in unpredictable situations. I feel really bad for not telling my parents 
                            about us, but I always just hoped that we could work things out or something. I 
                            guess not.  You know that you mean a lot to me, but I guess it’s time that I really let go. It’s 
                            been over a year.  I’ve never stopped loving you, but it’s time I let go. I told Joey that I was
                            over you when she came to visit me in the hospital. She’s a great girl, don’t let her go! 
                           Whatever you decide to do just remember I’m always behind you! And you’ll always have a
                            place in my heart.

 

                          Love Always

                          Charlene

 

 

I read over what I wrote and just put it aside.  I was debating if I should actually give that card to him.  I just picked up another card and simply wrote “Merry Christmas, Hope you like your present” and signed it.  I guess I’ll figure out which card to give him later.  I still needed to figure out what to get him. 

 

I pressed my ear against the door listening to see if Gil was still outside of my room.  And I didn’t hear a thing.  Slowly I creek opened my door and carefully peeped out.  I found Gillian fast asleep against the wall and still holding onto the tissue with the nasty dead spider in it.  Quickly I went back into my room and got out a permanent marker.  I snickered to myself while thinking of things to draw over her face!

 

Carefully I drew a mustache and a nice uni-brow.  I looked at my work and still wasn’t satisfied. Gil stirred a little, but went straight back to sleep.  I drew red dots all over her forehead and then I decided to leave it at that.  I knew she was going to kill me when she sees her face, but it would be hilarious if she just walked out of the house without looking at herself in the mirror.  I looked at Gil sleeping like a baby and I smiled at my masterpiece.

 

I headed out to the mall, deciding it was better if I wasn’t around when Gil woke up and this way I could look for Edison’s present.  I couldn’t stop smiling every time I thought about Gil and her expression would be when she saw herself in the mirror.  She’ll be scrubbing her face for hours!  I stopped when I spotted something in the store window.  I stared at it and memories of Edison came flooding back once again.  I figured this would be what I could get for him.  I brushed the feeling of emptiness aside and headed it.

 

“Good evening Miss” greeted the store clerk “Do you need help with anything?”

“Yes, how much is for that thing in the display window?”

 

“That would be forty dollars”

 

“I’ll take it.” I said and then fumbled around my purse for my wallet.

 

After I looked at the time and remembered about Gil.  I hurried home hoping she was still asleep so I could lock myself back in my room and just blame it on herself for sleepwalking and I would be there to see the look on her face.

 

I pulled up to the drive way and headed towards the house.  As soon as I opened the door I heard Gil scream

 

“CHARLENE I’M GOING TO KILL YOU!”
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sorry for taking so long buh yeah.... lotta shyt goig on... but yeah... wellz ummm i'm planning on ending this story soon like in da next couple chatpers... but i'm nut sure if i should.. so i'm leaving it up to u peepos... should i continue it~? or make it end~? cuz if i continue i have a whole lot to write till i'll end it... buh then again i'm starting antoher story... soo yeah... ahhh neways

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“Hello.  Is Mr. Edison Chen there?”

 

“This is he.”

 

“I’m Mrs. Cheung calling with news regarding a Ms. Charlene Choi and upon request I’m calling to inform you of her conditions”

 

“How is she? Is she okay? Has she wakened up yet?” Edison sounded worried and tired.

 

“I’m afraid I have some bad news.  She’ll be in the hospital a lot longer then we had expected.  We have encountered some difficulties.”

 

“What do you mean? What difficulties? Is she going to be okay?”

 

”What I mean is that I’m dying from this nasty hospital food!” I said in my own voice.

 

When I woke up from three days of being unconscious the nurse had told me that Edison has left his number and wanted the nurse to call him once anything happened.  I told the nurse that I would call and that she wouldn’t have to bother with it.  So I did call him.  I just wanted to have some fun, since there wasn’t anything else to do.  I just disguised my voice and called him up.

 

“Charlene! Don’t ever scare me like that again!” he scolded.

 

“I’m sorry. I’m just bored and hungry.”

 

“You’re going to have to eat something”

 

“Not this nasty food! I don’t even think rats would eat this!” I whined

 

“Well, I’ll be over in about half an hour.  You think you can wait till then?”

 

“Thank you Edison!”

 

“I’ll see you in a little bit.  Take care of yourself.”

 

“You sound like my mom!” I teased

 

“Ah shut up!”

 

“Sorry, I’ll talk to you when you get here.  Bye” I said and hung up.

 

I stared at the nasty food they tried to feed me.  I looked like some short of meat loaf? It reminded me of the mystery meat we used to have in high school.  I pushed the tray aside and I just sat there.  There was nothing to do.  How boring.  I ran my fingers over the IV going through my arm.  I’ve seen plenty of people in the hospital before, but I never imagined me being in one.  I guess it’s not something that anyone would want to imagine.

 

“So have you called Mr. Chen yet”  My fat chubby nurse asked as she walked in.

 

“Yeah, just got off the phone with him”

 

“You must be really lucky to have a boyfriend like him.” She commented.

 

“He’s not my boyfriend.  We’re just friends”

 

“Well it seems that there are more going on between you two.”

 

“Why do you say that?”

 

“For the past three days that you’ve been unconscious he’s been by your side. We had to convince him to go home and rest this morning.  He would still be here if we didn’t kick him out.  I was afraid he was going to be in the bed next to you. And if I’m right he should be coming here right now.”

 

“Yeah, he is on his way.  He’s bringing me some food.”

 

“Are you sure that you two are only friends?” she asked

 

“Yeah, I’m sure.   We used to date, but things just didn’t work out.”

 

“Well it seems like someone hasn’t gotten over you.”

 

“He just treats me like his little sister, he watches over me.  I tend to do a lot of stupid stuff, kind of like how I got here.”

 

“How did you get yourself here?”

 

“It’s a long story.”

 

“Well I guess it must be.  Not a lot of people come in for hypothermia.  Well I guess I’ll take this stuff the hospital calls food away.”

 

“Thanks.”

 

I watched her squeeze her ass through the door.  Not a pretty site!  It sent shivers through my body.  I was thinking if she really was just taking the food away or if she was just outside my door eating that crap.  I wouldn’t be surprised if she was eating it, but then again I don’t even think she could even eat that stuff.

 

I was feeling better then I had before.  I mean when I first woke up my whole body was sore my head was pounding and I couldn’t even lift myself up.  The pounding has gone down a bit, but my body is still sore.  It takes a lot of my energy just to walk to the bathroom and back.  I guess I shouldn’t be complaining, I could be in worst conditions.  Personally, the whole thought of being in the hospital just scares me.  I know a lot of lives get saved here everyday, but also a lot of lies are lost.  Just the whole thought of it.

 

“Hey Char, sorry for taking so long.” Edison said as he walked in.

 

“As long as you got my food, I’ll forgive you.” I joked.

 

“Here you go.” He said as he placed a Chinese carry out bag in front of me.

 

“Thank you!  I would hug you, but I don’t want you getting sick with the flu.”

 

“Just eat! Look at you, you look like a ghost!”

 

“Well look at you! Looks like you got two trash bags under your eyes.  What is your new job the garbage man?” I teased.

 

“I wouldn’t be so tired if it wasn’t for you.  Breaking our promise! You promised to never do anything stupid and look at where you are now.” He scolded.

 

“I’m sorry.”  I felt bad, I mean really bad.

 

“I’ll forgive you if you can finish all this.”

 

“ALL THIS? You’re crazy!  I know I eat a lot, but all this is just crazy!  I’m not that big of a pig”

 

He just giggled at me and he pulled out another pair of chopsticks.

 

“I’ll help you eat.”  He smiled and I smiled back

 

After eating we just sat around talking for awhile. Just basically about how everyone was worried about me and everything.  Found out that my parents didn’t’ know where I was or what has happened.  It was a good thing that they didn’t know, I wouldn’t want them to get all worried and they’ll just freak.  The doctor said that I would be able to leave in a couple of days, as soon as my temperature goes down a bit and if there isn't any more fluids in my lungs.  Edison went back home a couple hours later to sleep.  I had to force him to leave.  He would have slept on the ground next to my bed if he could. He finally left after an hour of forcing, which tired me out.  Heck getting up and walking tired me out. I was out like a light after Edison left.  I guess I needed rest, a lot of rest.

 

The next couple days people have been in and out of my room visiting.  Out of all of them Kenny seemed to be more pissed off at me than worried.  He's been going on and on about how I should think things through before hand and all that lecture you'll normally hear from parents.  It didn't bother me all that much, I know it was only cause he cared.  I didn't exactly have the strengt to fight with him.  Gillian and Nicholas came in often, but didn't stay long. 

 

Joey came in once, we didn't have much to say to each other.  It was actually awkward to be alone with her.  She came in and ask how iwas doing and then next thing out of her mouth was asking me if i still liked Edison.  The hard part was telling her that I didn't.  I knew she's not over him, and I knew that I had no chance with him.  So I guess in a way I'm slowly letting go.  We didn't have anything to say after that.  I mean who would?

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 okay a really gay chapter... but yeah... nothing really happens

 

Have you ever gotten that feeling where you want to do something, but can't exactly figure out what you want to do?  Well I got that feeling as I was unloading the bags and bags of presents I had bought for Christmas.  I had pretty much finished my Christmas shopping, except Edison's present. I can't seem to figure out what to get him.  I just laid the bags in the middle of my room and it seemed to have made a nice big pile.  I looked around looking for something to do, but couldn't and didn't feel like staying inside either.  I grabbed my keys and sat in my car and that didn't feel right either.  I couldn't figure out what on earth I wanted to do, I was starting to get agitated now.  I got out of the car and slammed the door and headed back towards the house.  I walked around the whole entire house looking for some thing to do.  I walked out on the balcony and just sat there, I was determined not to move from that spot till I think of some god damn thing to do. 

I just sat there.  I must have sat there for about 20 minutes till the dead looking forest caught my eye.  I remember how they looked in the Spring, the newly blossomed flowers, the energy and feeling you get from it. Summer, so full of life, and it was so... green? And who can ever forget fall, the colors of fall.  Now as I look at the forest it just looked dead, no life, nothing. Now I had something to do.  I walked down the stairs of the balcony and walked towards the woods.

I stood in front of the towering trees and this feeling came over me.  I don't know how to describe it, but it just felt good.  I looked back at my house and some how I dreaded going back.  I looked back at the woods and then back to my house.  Finally I walked into the woods.  I didn't know where I was going or what I was even thinking.  I just kept walked straight.  I figured if I just get tired I could turn around and walk straight out without getting lost.

In the woods I was a pirate searching for buried treasure, an explorer discovering new lands, a detective looking for clues and missing people hoping it would lead me to a criminal on the run.  But in real life I am who I am.  I was the one searching, discovering, and looking, but for what?  I guess the only answer to that is... myself.

It started getting dark and I was just about to turn around and go home, when I heard the sound of trickling water.  It sounded like a creek was near, so I decided to continue walking.  Not far away was a little creek.  It was like something from a fairy tale, it truly was magical.  I'm not even going to try to describe it, because there are no words to describe it.  You'll just have to see it for your self one day.  I sat down on a log and I didn't have a worry in the world.  I wanted to stay there and never leave.  I leaned up against a tree and slowly I drifted to sleep.

I don't know how long I had slept, but what I remember is waking up to the loud ring of my cell.

"Hello" I answered.

"Char! Where are you? Are you okay?" Kenny said worried.

"I'm fine. I'm just out for a walk."

"A walk? A five fucking hour walk?  Why haven't you picked up you phone till now?  You know how much everyone is worrying about you?" he screamed.

"I'm sorry! Stop yelling! I'm fine." I raised my voice a little

"Get your ass home now damn it!" he screamed again.

"Chill man! I'm fine, why the hell are you so pissed?" I screamed back.

"It's fucking midnight! And everyone has been looking for you for the past four hours!"

"Okay, okay! Stop screaming! I'll be home in half an hour.  Happy?"

"You better be home in half an hour!" he said and hung up.

I let out a sigh as I looked at my cell.  47 missed calls.  Damn, now I started feeling really bad.  I quickly got up and ran most the way home.  I walked up the stairs to the balcony and looked through the glass window. Everyone was sitting around the living room talking with tired looks in their faces.  I felt so bad, but also I didn't want them to know where I really was. I walked to the front of the house and went in through the front door.

"Char!" everyone said once they saw me.

"I'm sorry everyone! So sorry!" I said softly.

Gillian just ran up to me and hugged me tight, while everyone else was silent.

"Everyone looks so tired, all this because of me.  I'm sorry!" I said softly again.

I couldn't bare being in the same room with all of them now.  It was so hard on me.  As Gillian grip loosened I headed for my room.  I closed the door behind me and just flopped on my bed.

"Char, can I come in?"  Edison asked as he knocked on the door.

"Yeah, it's not locked" I said as I sat up.

The door swung open and he slowly walked in and closed the door behind him.

"Are you okay?" he asked

"I'm fine. Sorry for everything today"

"Don't worry about it. Are you sure you're okay" he asked again.

I looked him in the eyes and told him I was fine.

"You don't look so good." He said as he put his hand on my forehead.

"I feel fine. I don't know what you're talking about."

"You're burning up! Where did you even go today" he asked worried.

I was burning up?  I felt absolutely fine until he actually mentioned it.  I felt my own fore head and I was burning up.

"I was just taking a walk around and ended up at some park and I fell asleep on a bench." I lied.

"Stop lying Char! You wouldn't be here right now if you fell asleep at the park!  It's below zero outside! You would be dead by now" he said as he got up to get some aspirin off my drawer.

I was speechless.  How am I still alive?  Suddenly pain shoot through my whole body and I couldn't stop my body from shaking.  My heart was racing like a hummingbird's. My head started to spin! Slowly I was losing all feeling in m legs and arms.  I looked at Edison, I was scared, really scared!

"Edison, I..." before I could finish I fainted.
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short chapter...
and i wanted to change a lot of stuff and add more detials and everything but i got lazy...
soo i myte change it later..
i'll let chu peepos know ib i do chagne nething..

Steven has gone back home, and the last time I talked to him he has gotten back with his ex and they're working things out.  As far as I know now, he's going to be spending Christmas here, and if things go well with Candy he'll be bringing her too.  Well, I guess everyone is happy now, maybe everyone, but me?  It's not that I'm not happy with where my life is now. It's just that at times I'll just long for some one.  I know that every one goes through that every now and then, but for me at times it just gets so unbearable.  It's so unbearable that I find myself crying to sleep.  Haven't you ever gotten that feeling of jealously seeing your friends all happy together with their boyfriends or girlfriends?  Usually you'll just bottle up that feeling and it'll pass right?  But for me some how it doesn't pass, it stays and it grows, that feeling just keeps growing and it's slowly eating me from inside.  I don't know how much longer I can stand this feeling.

 

"Jei Jei (older sister), you want to go get some breakfast? I haven't been able to spend a lot of time with you lately." Gillian said as she sat on the edge of my bed.

 

My sister, what can I say about her?  I love her even though at times she can really drive me crazy, but I'm sure I drive her crazy at times too.  I say she's the one that gets most of the attention, she's the cute, adorable, yet strong type.  She has the strongest and greatest spirit ever.  Hardly anything can keep her down.

 

"Where do you want to go eat?" I asked

 

"How about that quiet little cafe we went to last time with Mommy?"

 

"Sounds good to me"

 

"Jei Jei..." she said quietly.

 

I looked at her, and she looked like she had a lot on her mind.

 

"What's wrong?" I asked concerned

 

"Never mind, it's nothing.  Common let's get ready" she replied and put on a smile.

 

I know that she had something on her mind, but I didn't want to force her to tell me.  She'll come tell me when she's ready, she always does.  At times I can tell when she wants me to force her to tell to make things easier, but this time isn't one of those cases.

 

"Char, let's plan a Christmas Party! And we can actually spend Christmas this year with our parents and friends." She said excited and took a big bite of her muffin

 

"I'm all up for the party, but think of the fact of Mom and Edison in the same room. Not such a good idea."

 

"Don't you think it's time to tell them about you two?"

 

"I'll let them know as soon as I find some one else or something.  I won't be able to put up with mom's you're not that young any more lecture and of course her blind dates!" I shuttered at the thought.

 

"Oh well, I just thought it would have been nice to actually spend Christmas with family and friend for once." She sighed.

 

"Does this really mean that much to you?  If it does I guess I could talk to Edison and work something out"

 

She didn't really say anything.  She just took a sip of her coffee and gave me a warm smile.

 

"You want to skip work today and go shopping with me?" I suggested.

 

"Do you even have to ask?" she laughed

 

We finished up our coffee and headed for the mall.  Of course my first stop was the candy shop.  After, we just went shopping for clothes, shoes, purses, make-up, and anything else you can think of.  We can spend money and we can spend it fast!  With all the money we spend on clothes, we could've bought enough patio furniture to fill up three football fields, but some how our balcony is still empty.  Doesn't really bother me, I like the balcony empty. I'm used to it that way.

 

"Freshman 15!" I laughed as Gillian was struggling to zip up a pair of pants.

 

"I wouldn't be talking!  Look at all that flab you have" she retorted

 

"This isn't flab! It's muscle!" I laughed and trying to flex at the same time.

 

"FEI POH (fat grandma)"

 

"What did you call me?  Now you're just going to be planning this Christmas thing on your own! I'm not helping" I teased

 

"You know you'll be helping! You're a control freak, you won't be able to resist the urge to make sure everything is perfect!" she stuck her tongue at me.

 

After awhile we settled down and just continued to shop.

 

"Hey, I'll talk to Edison for you, if that'll make things easier for you." Gillian said on a more serious note.

 

"Don't worry about it.  I'll talk to him myself.  I think things will be easier that way." I smiled.

 

The things I do for her.

 

"Let's pay for these clothes and go get some bubble tea, my treat."

 

"Yeah sure.  I wonder if everyone is free tonight.  We can go to our usual spot and just chill."

 

"Taking advantage of today aren't you?"

 

She smiled, and I just smiled back.  It was nice spending time with her, even though we would occasionally skip work.

 

When we got home we just started making calls to people to see if they were free to go out that night.  Most everyone said that they'll be there and others weren't so sure.  Some how I got stuck with picking up Edison and Gillian left a good two hours ago with Nicholas because they had something to do.  Well at least now I don't have to call up Edison about the Christmas Party.  I flinched at the thought of telling him about it.

 

It was only7 o'clock and we had plan to meet up at 9, so I had nothing to do for 2 hours.  I took a shower and pulled out an outfit I had bought earlier that day.  Still early and with nothing to do, so I just decided to drive over to Edison's house.  I was a good hour and a half early.  I got out of my car and was about to knock on the door when I heard the piano faintly playing from inside.  This sound, I haven't heard this sound for the longest time.  I made my way over to the window to find Edison on the piano.  My heart melted and ached at the same time.  I couldn't move myself from the window, I didn't want to move.  Every note he played brought back memories that I've been trying so hard to forget and move on, but you can't exactly deny how your heart feels.  I stood out there with the cold wind against my face, my breath fogging up the window, and I could barely feel my legs.

 

After losing all feelings in my legs and hands I decided to go in.  I walked backed over to the door and knocked.

 

"Char? You actually early, and a good 45 minutes early too?" he smirked.

 

"Yeah, I see you're starting to play the piano again.  I haven't heard you play for awhile."

 

"I have nothing else better to do, so I guess I picked it up again."

 

"So can I come in, or are you just going to let me stand out here in the cold." I asked.

 

I couldn't feel my legs and arms and I just wanted to get in to warm up.  He was taking a little too long to invite me in, so yeah. He just smiled and stepped out of the ways as I rushed in.

 

"So what do you want to do for 45 minutes?" He asked.

 

"I have something I want to talk to you about, but first you can play the piano for me." I smiled

 

"How about we talk first?"

 

"No, because if we talk first I don't think you would play for me."

 

He gave me a strange look and raised an eyebrow at me.

 

"Char, what is it?"

 

"Just that Gil wants to plan a Christmas party and my parents are going to be there and you'll have to pretend to be my boyfriend" I said at fast as I could hoping he would miss a word here and there.

 

"Wait, wait, wait.  Why would I have to pretend to be your boyfriend?"

 

"Because I never told them that we broke up.  They think we're still together." I said and stared at the ground.

 

I was preparing my self for the yelling and screaming that would follow my words.

 

"What the hell Charlene! Why didn't you tell them" He raised his voice a little.

 

"I don't know" I whisper.

 

I didn't want to even bother explaining to him because I know he wouldn't even listen right now.

 

"Char, why didn't you tell them?" he said calmly.

 

That surprised me.  He usually didn't take things this well.  At least I've never seen him take things like this.  So I slowly began to explain everything to him.  At times he got a little agitated, but for the most part he was calm.  He agreed to pretend to be my boyfriend at the party and I promised him that I wouldn't do anything stupid again.  But of course you all know me, me doing something stupid is unavoidable! We ended up not having enough time for him to play the piano. I was kind of bummed about that, but also kind of relieved in a way.

 

That night everyone actually showed up and we all just talked about the party.  I also had to tell everyone about me and Edison that day so that hopefully nothing would go wrong.  We talked about the plans for the party, and actually decided to do Secret Santa's this year.  We all figured it would save a lot of time and money.

 

"Wait, if we do Secret Santa should we include Steven and Candy?" I said as Gillian was writing everyone's name in a piece of paper.

 

"Steven is coming back here for Christmas? And who's Candy?" Joey asked

 

"Yeah, Steven is coming back, and Candy is his ex that he got back with." I explained.

 

"Well, if we add them in some one is going to have to call them up and tell them who they got, and there will go the whole point of Secret Santa." Kenny said trying to be smart.

 

"How about we all just chip in and buy them two a present?" Sammy suggested.

 

"That sounds good to me." I replied.

 

Gillian put all the pieces of paper in her hat and passed it around.  Everyone took a piece of paper out, and I was last so I took the remaining one.  Surprise, surprise I got Edison.  The thing is the curious and nosey person that I am managed to find out who had who, but explaining it to you will only get you confused as anything.

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you know i wasn't on planning on posting ne tyme soon, but felt kind of bad like keeping you guys waiting....so i updated just for you peepos... heh...
welpz yeah da prob that happened is styll going on and planing on making it a litto part way later in the sotry...
imma only planning it buh i'm not sure if i'll be using it... 

This is actually a prettie long chatper... well kind of 
untill next tyme pC~*

I'm officially 23 year old now.  You can hear people chattering downstairs and music playing.  Everyone was at my birthday party, but me.  I sat in front on my mirror staring at my own reflection.  I didn't recognize myself, my appearance was pretty much the same, but that look in my eyes was different.  My eyes once had that glimmer in it, that glimmer from hopes and dreams but now they were so still and lifeless.  I didn't want to go down to the party, I wanted to sit there and stare at my self till I actually recognized myself again.

 

As I looked in to the mirror the envelope Steven had given me caught my eye.  I got up from where I was sitting and walked over to my dresser.  I ran my fingers over the sketches and stared at it for the longest time.  I was trying to remember every last detail on it, like what I was trying to do with myself.  Finally I took out the card again.  On the front was a Teddy Bear hold a couple balloons and presents laid next to it and across the top was "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" in big letters.  I opened it to find it was still the same inside.  There was nothing.  When I say nothing I mean nothing, inside was blank! Not even a signature or even a mark. It was just plain white inside.

 

"Charlene?" A voice came through my door.

 

"Who is it?"

 

"It's Edison" He replied.

 

"Come in, it's not locked" I said and soon after the door slowly swung opened and music filled my room.

 

"Are you okay? Why aren't you down at the party?" He said as he closed the door behind while I carefully put away the card.

 

"Yeah, I'm fine.  I was just getting ready." I lied.

 

He me gave me a weird look and I knew he didn't believe, but he let it slide.

 

"Happy Birthday Char" he said and handed me a small box all neatly wrapped up.

 

"Thank you! What is it?" I asked as I gave him a hug.

 

"Open it and you'll see."

 

I undid the ribbon and then tore off the wrapping paper.  I was speechless and nearly dropped it when I saw what it was.  It was another extravagant necklace.  It has blue sapphires shaped into little petite flowers that went all around the necklace.

 

"Let me put it on for you" he softly said and took it out of the box.

 

I held up my hair as he fumbled around with the clasps.  I stood in front of the mirror and I was dazed.  I couldn't take my eyes off of it.

 

"You like it?" He said as he stood behind me and looked at my reflection in the mirror.

 

"I love it! Thank you." I said as I gave him another hug.

 

"Common let's go down to the party." He said as he walked towards the door.

 

I wanted to tell him that I didn't want to go down, that I wanted to stay in my room with him.  But of course I stayed quiet and just followed him down stairs.

 

Everyone greeted me with a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY as I walked into the living room.  I put on a smile and just walked around the crowd of friends.  I just bobbed my head to the music and got my self a drink. Everyone looked like they were all having fun doing their own things.  In one corner of course were the people who liked to gamble, playing their 13.  There were groups just sitting and standing around talking and chatting up and those who were dancing.

 

Out of no where a pair of cold hand covered my eyes

 

"Guess who" someone whispered into my left ear

 

I couldn't recognize the voice over the music and the chatter of peoples.

 

"I don't know, I give up" I said and the hand quickly loosened. "STEVEN!" I shouted and wrapped my arms around him.

 

"Happy birthday Char!"

 

"I thought you went back home."

 

"You really think I would miss your birthday?" he said and handed me a bouquet of flowers.

 

"Thank you, there're beautiful." I said and set them down on the table as he pulled me into the living room where everyone was dancing. 

 

I just bobbed my head to the music.  I didn't really feel like dancing, but I soon got into the music and danced a couple songs with Steven.  I was having a fun time till I my eyes caught Edison and Joey dancing together.  I paused and stared at them two and my fingers ran over the necklace Edison had given to me earlier.

 

"Steven, I need some fresh air, I'll be back in 10 minutes." I said as calmly as I could.

 

I walked out of the living, but once I was in the kitchen I ran out on to the balcony.  I leaned over the rail, took a deep breathe and let out a big sigh.  My fingers still pressed up against the necklace.

 

"Are you okay?" Steven asked as he walked out onto the balcony.

 

"Yeah, I'm fine.  Don't worry about me." I said without bothering to even look back.

 

"Charl..."

"I said I'm fine!" I snapped.

 

He didn't say anything after that and I started feeling bad for snapping at him the way I did.

 

"I'm sorry" I apologized.

 

"You really do love him, don't you?" He asked softly.

 

I nodded and just stared off into the horizon.  I felt his hand on my shoulder, and I put my hand on his.  You can hear the music coming from inside, along with the whistling of the crisp winds.

 

"Steven, what do you think of me as? Like a friend? Sister? Or what?" I asked as I turned to face him.

 

I ask that question a lot, mostly just out of curiosity.  Also it's a way to figure out what they have on their mind.

 

Steven looked at me and just smiled.  He didn't answer.

 

"Look it's starting to rain, let's go in before we get sick" He said changing the subject.

 

"No I like the rain.  I've always wanted to dance in the rain and just let everything go for just that moment." I said as I spread out my arms welcoming the rain.

 

"Char, it's freezing out here, you'll get sick!"

 

"You only live once! And you still haven't answered me, what do you think of me as?" I said as it started to rain harder.

 

"You'll always be a good friend, but most of all, the sister I never had! Now let's go in I don't want you getting sick!" he nagged

 

"You can go in, but I'm not! It's my birthday and this is what I've wanted to do for the longest time."

 

I twirled around the balcony, with my hair and clothes getting soaked from the rain.  It was freezing, but I didn't care.  I opened the door to the balcony and music from inside came flooding out!  After awhile Steven joined me.  I have to admit I had a lot of fun, and for that moment nothing actually matter.  I did get really sick the next day and was in bed for a week, but I say it was worth it.

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i'm not going to be updating for while....

some shyt came up and i'm not going to be in the mood to update
and i'll be busy dealking wif a lot of stuff
sorry!